Who am I??? I think I am my Mother

June 30, 2008

In my mind this was going to be a post about my personal identity and how I lost it over the years. It also tied in nicely on how, though I have tried not to, I have become my parents.  I used to have a first and last name.  I got married and became Kevin’s wife.  Though I had always been a Daughter of Dot or Wendy ___ little sister, that was ok. However, simply being Kevin’s wife for a bit was bothersome.  Then I realized just how big his family is and found my self referring to cousins as “ya no so and so’s kid”.  Now that I have children I am simply Parker and Holly’s mom.  Many of there friends and classmates as well as classmates mother’s refer to me only as “Parker’s mom or Holly’s mom”.  I have even called a parent and said “Hi, this is Parker’s Mom”.  So somewhere over time I have lost who I am (what is my name again? I know my parents gave me one”) And it is good I am happy to be a “daughter of Dot, Wendy’s little sister, Kevin’s wife, Parker and Holly’s mom”

Today, I found out what I have become!  I am (and I say this with pride) my mom and my dad.  We had our BIG grocery shopping trip today.  It happens about 1-2 times per month.  It can be stressful navigating the grocery store with shoppers like I used to be.  The ones that are in a hurry and don’t have time for a mom with kids.  Oh, and believe me I try to let them  pass by because I used to be that shopper with out kids.  So as I am navigating the isles with the kids, trying to keep them with me, I am saying things I heard my parents say to,, and I think in the same tone!

“NO we are not buying candy, you have some at home”

“No you don’t need that cereal it has to much sugar, your teeth will rot out”

“No you cant have that” followed quickly with ” Because I said so that’s why!”

“Get up off the floor”

“Watch out for other people”

“Keep your hands to yourself”

“Don’t’ hit your sister”…..”Don’t hit your brother”

“Stop bickering,,,and I mean now!”

So 2 hrs latter and a lot of money less we made it out of the store.  I realized,,,It’s not so bad being my parents.  If I was just plain old me, I would have crawled in a hole after the first 10 min.

So Mom and Dad,,,thanks!  I am glad I am turning out to be like YOU!